October 2, 2007

Curious about tonight . . .

Posted in Frustrations at 3: 27 pm by MK

I was away last week for a work conference, so I didn’t get a chance to do any tutoring.  I’m heading back tonight and I’m curious to see what’s been going on with the family. 

I’m trying to remain positive, but still bracing myself for a frustrating evening.  Whenever there has been a longer/ish break between tutoring sessions we lose so much ground.  It seems like I spend the entire evening reviewing everything that’s already been taught.  Okay, I’m not really complaining:  this is going to take time, obviously, and I’m more than willing to review and review as much as needed.  I think the real crux of the situation for me is fighting this struggle between being personally invested in the family but needing to juggle my own life.  I’ve been managing two sessions about an hour each a week, but I know, deep down, that they really need more one-on-one tutoring time.  And I feel guilty saying that I don’t have more time to give.  Maybe it’s my overall guilty personality, but it feels a bit ego-centered on my part to sit here typing on this blog about the help this family needs, yet I can’t seem to find the time to step it up and provide more tutoring hours. 

I’m not looking for reassuring comments.  I think part of the issue is that I’m not just tutoring, I’ve also been reading a lot about second-language writing and information-overload is starting to kick-in.  My readings are clearly outlining the challenges facing my students now and in the future.  Yes, I think we’re all aware of these challenges but reading about them from Peter Elbow, Deborah Brandt, Mike Rose, and Paul Matsuda make them so much more brilliant.  I will boil down the most interesting aspects in future posts this week–maybe that will make things clearer/more manageable.

And yes, I know every little bit helps.  But I also know that a big bit would help even more. 


1 Comment »

  1. Elizabeth said,

    It is the Catholic upbringing – guilt will always consume us no matter how much we are giving!

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